where I count my blessings at night. I used to let my mind wander, and I even tried to count sheep. Then I realized those tricks didn't work. But counting my blessings has, maybe because I have a solid list of things to get through. And before I'm actually done, I end up dozing off. Just thought I'd share some of those things today since it's Thanksgiving.
I'm thankful for my family. My big ass family in Worcester. One thing I learned about family as an adult (and I know they preached this to me early on but I took it for granted) is that your family supports you no matter what happens - whatever dumb situation you find yourself in, whatever mistake you made, no matter how bad life gets. I'm grateful because every time I find myself in a bad situation in Boston, a part of me knows my heart still lingers in Worcester, and in that very moment, at least a part of me is safe at home.
I'm also thankful for my job. Nursing can feel like you're splitting hairs sometimes. You feel tugged in a million directions at once, but once you get into a patient's room it's like you have to drop that tension at the door and make sure the interaction you're about to have with your patient is the best one you can muster given the circumstances. You can't please everyone, you don't get along with every patient you're assigned, and you also yearn to be cozied up in bed every night shift. But the underlying knowledge that you're doing important work and caring for people when they're in their weakest gives you a sense of fulfillment - the idea that even if you slept all day, you spent your day well because you made someone more comfortable.
Then there's Mike and our apartment. It's the cutest little one bedroom, but we love it. It's quaint with just enough space for the both of us. Growing up, I always wanted to live in the heart of Boston but thought it would be near impossible. For every morning we can wake up together at the same time, which is rare, and enjoy our day in the presence of the other in our own warm space, I am grateful.
These take up the bulk of my gratitude. There's also my handful of friends who I don't see often but can still meet up with once in a while for a quality catch up. Overall, I'm excited by life and the fact that I can wake up every morning knowing I have the power to have and do anything I want, as long as I apply myself to it. People ask me why I won't go back to school already. Well, to be frank, I'm having a good time enjoying life as it is. I'm liking the time I have to blog on my website, explore hand-lettering, and work on projects I actually feel passionate about. There's also the day-to-day simplicities, like learning a new recipe or trick in Illustrator to improve your vector. The time to also kick back and watch a movie, take my baby cousins out for play dates, and travel to new places also makes my time incredibly valuable.
There is no rush.