I love my job. It's been challenging and stressful, but rewarding overall; everything I imagined it to be.
I guess I've lost sight of what it means to be a new nurse in her first year, though. Before I started this job, I promised myself I would suck it up for the sake of doing a good job during my first year. I think I fulfilled this motto fairly well until recently, when I started to feel comfortable and complacent. The reality is that I shouldn't feel very comfortable at all. There are still so many types of patients I haven't had, experiences I haven't gone through, and things I haven't learned. I haven't even had my first code blue yet, and that scares me a little still.
I took a week off to get my sorts together.
Mike and I had the chance to get away for a few days. We decided to hiking in New Hampshire. Our trip consisted of three parts: Franconia Falls, Mount Flume, and the Flume Gorge.
Franconia Fall was an easy 2-ish mile hike (or should I say walk). The trail was a straight shot so if you ever decide to do it, make sure you're doing it with someone whom you're comfortable 1. talking to about absolutely anything and everything or 2. not talking to at all. It was boring until we finally hit the falls. The rocks themselves were giant, smooth, and glorious in the sunlight. There's even a natural water slide you can go down. I didn't because I can't swim well and I probably would've died.
Our second day on our trip was nearly ruined by the rain. It was technically my vacation so I didn't want to waste it being indoors. We decided to take on Mount Flume thinking we'd see the Flume Gorge as our prize, but poor research got the better of us and not only did we not end up seeing the Flume Gorge that day but we also hiked up one of the most dangerous trails there in the rain with running shoes. We also hiked down the same trail, which is apparently also a no-no considering how steep it was. We were almost at the top when the markers became less apparent and it was beginning to get dark. We decided our safest bet was to climb down. It was such a nice feeling, though. Being up there with the clouds. Being surrounded by that mist makes you feel like you're so high up because its the same view you get when you're in an airplane. I felt so on-top-of-the-world, literally. I wish we took a longer break to take in the clouds and the trees poking out, and I wish I got a picture. But that ephemeral view is a sight I'll remember for a long time.
Our last day there, we visited the Flume Gorge, which is, fyi, a cut-out-for-you visitor's attraction easy-peasy trail. You pay and everything to walk clear-cut trails. Warning: there are stairs, and some inclines.
Overall, though, had a great three days with my man being out with the water and green, hearing real birds chirping and live streams. Instead of Yellow Brick Cinema on Youtube on repeat. It was nice.